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It's certainly been a little while since i logged anything on here. I havn't really been home though since i met Jes, we're doing awesome, totally into each other. She's so great, we meld really well. I havn't been training a whole lot, although i did do a 4.5 hour ride yesterday. It was supposed to be 5 hours, but my eating habbits havn't been all that consistent and i bonked promptly at 4 hours. I limped home with Carl in tow. I still have a lot of confidence about this race, i may not finish as fast as i wanted to, but i WILL finish it, no doubt about that. the swim and bike are nothing to me, the run still worries me, but i'm going to do a 15 mile run soon and see how it feels. Then 17, 18. and 20 two weeks before the event.

Things with Jes are going really well. We have a very honest and open way of talking to each other and it's helped resolve some issues before they became issues The only downside to seeing her right now is my training is suffering and i'm not getting much sleep...or eating on a regular basis. But today i plan on running after work, then going over her house. I know that if we don't have a full blown relationship, Jes and i will definitely be awesome friends

Anyway, Jeff is back - his father passed away last saturday. He's going to collect his stuff and drive the U-Haul back to maine. He's only back for three days, which sucks because i was hoping he'd stay longer so we could go to a park, or a spring and just chill for a whole day. THose plans would have been ruined though because Randy got fired last night after flipping his lid and talking back to our Director of Operations. THe DO called me and said that he's going to move me up, and soon.

Thats good financially, but it's not how i wanted it to happen, i didn't want to take my friends job. It's a moral thing i'm going to be struggling with, and also if they make me GM i'll be skipping two levels of management, so it'll definitely add more pressure and paperwork and more hours then i'm already giving. That means less time for my ironman training. I guess we'll have to see what happens.

After work last night, Jes called me and we met at the restaraunt to go out. She took me downtown to Chillers. It's been 4 years since i've been downtown and at first it brought back bad memories, but as the night rolled on and with the help of Jes and her friends being very nice and friendly, it turned out to be pretty ok. My lower back hurts from dancing, but i'll get over it. I jumped on the scale this morning, and i'm 210. I've dropped 25 pounds in a month without a ton of training. Just goes to show that i was not eating properly before.

Anyway i had a fantastic time with Jes and i'm so glad i've found someone that is funny, outgoing, sarcastic...she challenges me and thats always what i've looked for. Someone to not just nod their head at me all the time, but to contribute to my life in some way. Jes will definitely do that. She even brought me over to 'Puffer Bird's' house. Puffer bird is an elderly lady that she watches occaisionally on the weekend, and Pufferbird had to approve of me before we could take things further (half joking). When we arrived from the club Puffer and I hit it off very well, and she invited me back...which is something she hasn't done to any of Jes's boyfriends. Puffer is the nicest old lady i've ever met, and her dog is very affectionate too, without being over bearing heheh. We had some good laughs, and then when the conversation turned serious i apparently answered her questions satisfactorily. So i'm thinking this is going to go somewhere. All i gotta do now is make sure i still train.

Jes has not had a very good track record with boys...always picking the wrong ones and she has let down a few of her defenses, but hte biggest and strongest ones will take some time to lower. I'm just going to be myself, let her know that i care about her not by telling her (well i will on occaision) but by proving it over time. Just let things roll.

ok so, i got called into work yesterday...suck. But i met "Jes" which rocks (we talked for 4 hours on the phone last night). But my bosses car got stolen. Suck. what a dramatic day.

oh yeah, and as i thought, my boss and i kissed and made up. we're stronger now for it.

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the hardest decision i ever made was the decision to become me. no that doesn't make me super duper or anything. It just makes me non-tolerant of most of societies bullshit. Today my boss was scheduled to work and instead he decided to go to a barbecue. When i arrived to work the place was in shambles, i had a line out the door, and i was running out of stuff. The district manager happened to call me and i told him what i was up against. He called my manager and told him to go in like he was supposed to. WTF. So you guessed it, my manager comes in and gives me a rash of shit saying he ne ver gets a dya off...blah blah blah. What an asshole. If he was scheduled off, i could understand, but he was SCHEDULED TO WORK.

After the bullshit he pulled tonight, i called the district manager myself personally and asked him if i was able to relocate if things didn't smooth over tomorrow. He said no problem. THat gives me leverage. and i'm going to use that leverage to make sure my manager apologizes...or loses his best employee. Don't play games with me bitch, if you think life is hard now...i'll xfer to another store, and i'll take three employees with me.