Rode this morning next to Eric for a little over an hour. Not exactly an aerobic workout but it got me out at 6 am. Then i proceeded to do squat the rest of the day. Oh well, there's always tomorrow.
Talked iwth J today. SHe liked some of the writing i gave her, havn't gotten to discuss any of it with her though. I'd like to know which part of which ones she liked. She's going on vacation next week with her family, and i'm hoping she is able to work some things out in a comfortable supportive environment. I'm working for CFT all that week putting on one of the sprint tri's as a laborer. Make some cash!
Friday, June 13
Decided to go for a run this morning after buying Mizuno Wave Rider VI sneakers. They feel good, i ran for 20 minutes and felt a tinge in my hip still, i took it real slow and easy though. Was good to get out. Later today i'll ride the whole trail, probably 1:45 or 2 hours. Yesterday i swam 600m, and meant to ride but it poured.
Today i'm going to have lunch with "J" and then take her over either to the lake or the nature preserve where we can chat and what not. Looking forward to it.
Today i'm going to have lunch with "J" and then take her over either to the lake or the nature preserve where we can chat and what not. Looking forward to it.
Wednesday, June 11
Tuesday, June 10
Yesterday i rode for 1:30! finally! Today my neck is killing me and so is my pachoch, but hey, i'll get used to it again. why 1:30 and not 2 hours? cause i felt like it..and it was raining at the end of the ride.
It felt great though, and i'm going to ride again today. I gotta put together a plan in a spreadsheet tonight if i have time. Dave dropped my rent to $300/month. He's such a nice fellow.
It felt great though, and i'm going to ride again today. I gotta put together a plan in a spreadsheet tonight if i have time. Dave dropped my rent to $300/month. He's such a nice fellow.
Sunday, June 8
Today id idn't do shit either. But tonight i'm going to break out "Plans for Multisport Athletes" Kickon a spreadsheet and go to town. I have 22 weeks, i have lots of people i'll let down if i don't get my ass in gear, and i need to do this ironman...for me. i NEED this ironman. The plan: Cycle 2 hours a day in an effort to lose weight in the first 6 weeks. I plan on dropping my swimming all together for awhile because i'm very happy where i am swimming - wise, and my shoulder hurts more every stroke i take. My nerve problem is coming back and id on't have insurance to go o the doc and get it checked out. I'm fully confident i could swim a 2.4 right now no problem, in choppy sea water. I will start running again as soon as i get new sneakers. The ones i have are so old my hip is hurting and they are giving me blisters. On second thought, i'll do 2 short runs and keep a long run going, but cycling will be my main focus. It doesn't tear on my body and i can stick with it for 2 hours a day easy, and drop this extra weight. Once i drop the weight my running will come easier. I'll start swimming 8 weeks out to make sure my form is still good. It's the only thing i can think of right now. I NEED TO DROP THIS WEIGHT: Goal: 2 pounds a week for 15 weeks. Thats 30 pounds. I gotta get my nurtition strategy going again too.
Saturday, June 7
Yesterday was my bday, the big 24...iw asn't able to go out with the person i had planned; so i went to Jeffs work and played games till late at night, watched About Schmidt (ok Movie) and then went home at 4 am. I got pulled over for having an expired tag (expired 4 hours previous) but the cop was cool, just told me to get a new tag. Tonight i'm supposed to go out with Michelle and a bunch of friends for dinner, hoping it will be a great time. STill no training yet. Not sure when i'm going to start up again, soon i hope.
Thursday, June 5
Wednesday, June 4
Tuesday, June 3
While on the plane home from Texas, i picked up Outdoor magazine and there was an article in there about Lance Armstrong. I've read his book and hesitated to pick it up because i know quite a bit about his life, but this had some new material in it, and so i bought it and took it on the plane. It described how he has such a passion, obsession for cycling, that he surrounds himself carefully with people who are only 100% supportive, food and items that will affect his cycling in a positive way. He literally eats and breaths and lives cycling.
I want to have passion for something like he does, like William Wallace did, i want to burn to do something. Sure i've burned to do something, and i usually attain it in a relatively short amount of time then the burning goes away to be replaced by cold ashes. I want to burn for something for the rest of my life. I want to yearn for something or someone so much that i'd give up my whole existence for it/them. Is that so much to ask?
Motivation was so much easier to come by when i was pissed off at the world, anger is the most volitle form of motivation, and it's really effective. But its not healthy either, it's empty. I'm going to use these next few weeks to get re-aqcuainted with training again. See what happens.
I want to have passion for something like he does, like William Wallace did, i want to burn to do something. Sure i've burned to do something, and i usually attain it in a relatively short amount of time then the burning goes away to be replaced by cold ashes. I want to burn for something for the rest of my life. I want to yearn for something or someone so much that i'd give up my whole existence for it/them. Is that so much to ask?
Motivation was so much easier to come by when i was pissed off at the world, anger is the most volitle form of motivation, and it's really effective. But its not healthy either, it's empty. I'm going to use these next few weeks to get re-aqcuainted with training again. See what happens.
Where to start: Lets start with the negative stuff first, get it over with.
Saturday i got heat exhaustion in the 103 degree convection oven we call Texas. Saturday night iw as sick as a dog, and i didn't get to the race site until the race was over the next day.
Today i got to work and was laid off from CFT Sommer Sports.
Ok now lets get to the good stuff.
The kids race went amazing. It was so cool to see these kids run their hearts out, chasing each other down. The event went pretty much flawlessly from where i was standing, we tore down that race and set up the olympic all in the same day. It was very hard work but i was having a good time.
You know, i really had a long report to file here, i actually got some motivation to do something great...but it's sort of being eclipsed by being laid off. I'm trying not to be down about it, but it was a parting i almost felt coming. I simply couldn't complete the job successfully or satisfactorily. I admit my fault, i finally bit off more then i could chew...and i choked on it. The president of hte company however did say that in the future, when the company expands, he thinks my graphic talents are excellent and would possibly put me on as a full time artist. I would love that. I also asked that i stay in the industry by being a laborer (which is what i pretty much did at both races), he said it's a possiblity.
Now what? Well i'm going to go back to work for Eventures and PGI. They are event management and i really liked that aspect of hte job, so i'm going to go grab a radio and make some money. After that? I'm probably going to go back to school. I need to figure out what i'm going to do and do it. As for coaching, i suppose i can't afford it now, so i'll be coaching myself thorugh IMFL.
Saturday i got heat exhaustion in the 103 degree convection oven we call Texas. Saturday night iw as sick as a dog, and i didn't get to the race site until the race was over the next day.
Today i got to work and was laid off from CFT Sommer Sports.
Ok now lets get to the good stuff.
The kids race went amazing. It was so cool to see these kids run their hearts out, chasing each other down. The event went pretty much flawlessly from where i was standing, we tore down that race and set up the olympic all in the same day. It was very hard work but i was having a good time.
You know, i really had a long report to file here, i actually got some motivation to do something great...but it's sort of being eclipsed by being laid off. I'm trying not to be down about it, but it was a parting i almost felt coming. I simply couldn't complete the job successfully or satisfactorily. I admit my fault, i finally bit off more then i could chew...and i choked on it. The president of hte company however did say that in the future, when the company expands, he thinks my graphic talents are excellent and would possibly put me on as a full time artist. I would love that. I also asked that i stay in the industry by being a laborer (which is what i pretty much did at both races), he said it's a possiblity.
Now what? Well i'm going to go back to work for Eventures and PGI. They are event management and i really liked that aspect of hte job, so i'm going to go grab a radio and make some money. After that? I'm probably going to go back to school. I need to figure out what i'm going to do and do it. As for coaching, i suppose i can't afford it now, so i'll be coaching myself thorugh IMFL.
Thursday, May 29
Well i'm not off to a very good start:
I locked my keys in my car, forgot my ticket at work, and the paychecks weren't cut so i'm broke.
Other then that, i got my numbers done, packed my bag and just can't really sleep.
I've got some ideas for the site, some new pics and stuff. IT'll have to wait till next weekend though. I gotta get archives up too, but i don't want this huge list, iw ant a seperate page for them.
Also, take a look over at www.bloghop.com. that site is amazing, click on the pictures page and every icon you see is a blog. It's the most beautiful thing i've ever seen. I just can't help myself and click click click away looking at other peoples journals.
On another crappy note, the house has been invaded by huge spiders. I'm no wanker, i know what a spider is and hwen it's big i mean big. We're talking big thick legs and body, about the size of a saucer. Dave hit one with a fly swatter (i wanted to use a shoe but he said it would make a mark...yer damned right!) it fell off the wall, THUDDED on the floor, and ran away. I swear one of them is going to eat me.
I locked my keys in my car, forgot my ticket at work, and the paychecks weren't cut so i'm broke.
Other then that, i got my numbers done, packed my bag and just can't really sleep.
I've got some ideas for the site, some new pics and stuff. IT'll have to wait till next weekend though. I gotta get archives up too, but i don't want this huge list, iw ant a seperate page for them.
Also, take a look over at www.bloghop.com. that site is amazing, click on the pictures page and every icon you see is a blog. It's the most beautiful thing i've ever seen. I just can't help myself and click click click away looking at other peoples journals.
On another crappy note, the house has been invaded by huge spiders. I'm no wanker, i know what a spider is and hwen it's big i mean big. We're talking big thick legs and body, about the size of a saucer. Dave hit one with a fly swatter (i wanted to use a shoe but he said it would make a mark...yer damned right!) it fell off the wall, THUDDED on the floor, and ran away. I swear one of them is going to eat me.
Wednesday, May 28
My head is coming out of the clouds, and i see before me a bare breasted woman with a look on her face like, "Got Milk?"
I'm eating salads, i'm ENJOYING salads.
I ran yesterday, and even though i wanted to swim too, i didn't get out of work till 10 so teh pool was closed.
Things are looking up.
I'm not here to whine, just here to identify when i'm in a slump and correct it as quickly as possible. I go through slups usually 1-2 times a year, and man, when i pull out of it life sure does seem sexy!
Ok, here's to another 6 months of happiness.
I'm eating salads, i'm ENJOYING salads.
I ran yesterday, and even though i wanted to swim too, i didn't get out of work till 10 so teh pool was closed.
Things are looking up.
I'm not here to whine, just here to identify when i'm in a slump and correct it as quickly as possible. I go through slups usually 1-2 times a year, and man, when i pull out of it life sure does seem sexy!
Ok, here's to another 6 months of happiness.
Tuesday, May 27
Well i embark thursday morning to put on a major triathlon in Irving Texas.
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My shoulder is starting to hurt again, my hip too. Thought i got over the hip thing when running, guess not. My shoulder has a weird nerve problem, just don't have the time/money to get it checked out.
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I ran this morning for the first time in 2 weeks (since my race) and it was nice.
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I hate traffic
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Blogger is messed up and won't let me save my templates, so i'm stuck with what i got for now :(
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I need to find some extra motivation for work...and quick. I'm slacking a bit and even though my boss thinks i'm great...i knwo i'm not doing my best and that bothers me.
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I've come full circle. I used to love myself, content with how i looked and acted. I was free and triathlon helped me get there. Now i don't love myself anymore, and i can't love anyone else till i can love myself again. I'm not sure what happened, but somewhere along the way i became very insecure with myself again. So is my life, doomed to peaks and valleys of emotion and confidence. I think my confidence had something to do with having a girlfriend that loved me, i didn't have to worry about it. Now that i'm on the free market i feel especially vulnerable and defensive.
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I'm pretty excited about going to Irving. I hope the event goes well. I like my position too, i'm the guy who fills in everywhere that's needed, so i'm never standing around. I'm always needed, and feeling needed is a good thing.
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My shoulder is starting to hurt again, my hip too. Thought i got over the hip thing when running, guess not. My shoulder has a weird nerve problem, just don't have the time/money to get it checked out.
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I ran this morning for the first time in 2 weeks (since my race) and it was nice.
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I hate traffic
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Blogger is messed up and won't let me save my templates, so i'm stuck with what i got for now :(
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I need to find some extra motivation for work...and quick. I'm slacking a bit and even though my boss thinks i'm great...i knwo i'm not doing my best and that bothers me.
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I've come full circle. I used to love myself, content with how i looked and acted. I was free and triathlon helped me get there. Now i don't love myself anymore, and i can't love anyone else till i can love myself again. I'm not sure what happened, but somewhere along the way i became very insecure with myself again. So is my life, doomed to peaks and valleys of emotion and confidence. I think my confidence had something to do with having a girlfriend that loved me, i didn't have to worry about it. Now that i'm on the free market i feel especially vulnerable and defensive.
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I'm pretty excited about going to Irving. I hope the event goes well. I like my position too, i'm the guy who fills in everywhere that's needed, so i'm never standing around. I'm always needed, and feeling needed is a good thing.